The Gift

I feel so freaked out. What’s gonna happen??? What if what I thought doesn’t go right?? An apartment in a metro with above avg.ish job is what I have always dreamt of. But everythin’s not in your hand. Sometimes it is so bloodcurdling being so idealistic. Still one has to be such in some or the other chapter of his life.

What life wants outta me, I dun know. I’ve been moving from one place to another. Whatever I’ve gone through, still I gotta discover many things. Not many things that I came to know are: For no reason trust blindly. There are hardly any worth it. Expectation from someone is something so sick. Why do people expect??. I dun get this damn shit. It’s more shattering when your precious ones can’t live up to the altitude you set up for them. This World is very BITCHY. One sole and undemanding guy is subjugated by the ravenousness, egocentricity and infidelity that have sprung up.

The life I had dreamt of living was entirely tension free. My funda towards it has always been something like:- “Tension lene ka nahi dene ka naam hai”.

However at present I’m powerless to know that why the hell, I’m tensed and what fuckin’ damn thing makes me feel so. Why is it such that, when in a quandary, then only we memorize HIM. There have been so many things I wanna talk ’bout but I can’t. What the fuck?? I wasn’t like this before. Nobody could bind me like this.

People I’ve met, the ones I made friends, will they ever come across me again.They say that this world is so small. Still I can’t find The Peace-ful ME. Stepping out of this cosseted, better say over-cosseted layer, will make you realize that “Dude!! You are screwed to the core.”

I think that’s the reason why people prefer boozing and dozing off.”Oh!! Fuck.. It’s so warm”.

But this isn’t the remedy to the problems. You’ll have to face it.”Bloody hell, all this isn’t what I had thought. I dun wanna face the real ME. Can’t all this be stopped??”

The time’s running by. Whatever you desire, not everything becomes real. As they have said “Time and Tide waits for none”. You will never come to know when it’s too late. When you lose someone very dear to you, it’s just a tear that rolls down your cheek but whatever you have inside you is never open to the people that mean the world to you. At very instant, you desperately want to have the power to slow the TIME, but it never stops. Just passes by…

It’s a mere recollection that you perceive whenever you look behind in the parchments of the book of your own life. Several people come into your life. Some leave a mark but some entirely amend it. Life’s such that it gives you a new surprise every now and then. So it’s better if you don’t think bout yesterday.

“Yesterday’s the past, tomorrow’s the future, but today is a gift. That’s why it’s called the PRESENT.”